GIGOLO TO GURU: How My Past Brought Me Here
- Rev. Dr. Nick Eagle
- Mar 12
- 3 min read
From gigolo to guru and Nick Hawk to Nick Eagle, the plan wasn't to be a guru, but when people book you and tell you that they are emptying their 401k to spend two weekends with you and then kill themselves, or endless therapists do not work and you're their last hope, you get a push in that direction. Fortunately, I was already on a quest to master confidence and operate at my full potential. Little did I know that it would lead me here.
I became the most famous and highest requested gigolo on the planet and it wasn't because of my $1 million dollar insured penis; it was because you all see something in me. You see fire in my eyes. You see a way out. You see truth and you see much love. And I show you how you can have this fire and all of my clients left with much more fire in their eyes than they came with, and it wasn't from sex.
As I said in my Soft White Underbelly Interview, they came to me for answers. Before I considered myself a "guru," I was starting them on their spiritual journey and I didn't even know it. My TV show made it look like they came for sex, but outside of the TV show, it was very different. I never sold sex. When I became a gigolo, I thought it was the coolest thing in the world and planned to, but soon after I learned how foolish it was to offer just anyone your body, even if they were paying you A LOT of money.
Our body should be a reward. Our bodies and sex should be sacred. It should only be done by those who have left behind fear, to enter advanced states of healing and answers. I hate that people think I sold mine. They did not come for sex. They thought that sex would automatically give them happiness, but there is absolutely no satisfaction in having sex, short of the placebo effect, just to have sex, no matter who you are having it with. And if it is not a deserving reward, you lose power. The last client I slept with, I helped induce a major kundalini awakening before she was deserving and ready. I knew I could never do that again and I paid a great price myself.
I always wanted to offer more than sex. Who can't thrust their hips? It isn't lack of sex that was the problem with all the clients who came to me. I wanted to teach them how to be desirable, as anyone can be. Booking me was giving up on themselves and me offering myself was feeding their darkness.
The world of gigoloing gave me a glimpse into the lives of some of our most lost. It was good to know that I wasn't the only one who struggled, but I always saw through it. Seeing through my own self-inflicted suffering done by Nick Hawk allowed me to leave it behind and step into this guru role of Nick Eagle. I didn't realize how many suffered just as I did. I always knew suffering was not something that we must do. That never made sense. It was a lack of guidance, confidence, and good health. My first self-help book focused on these things and led me on this spiritual journey and to my awakenings. It all came full circle when I wrote my doctorate of Philosophy PhD. dissertation, "Life Does Not Have To Be Suffering." I not only proved it by my actions but also with my words. A guru is one who has conquered their demons. Mine have been cast far away and I can now help you do the same. Take my hand to begin this spiritual journey, awakenings and leaving behind fear and suffering.
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